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Ixnay on the Anadacay

I can’t get on the Canadian J1 programme.

Right now there’s a queue of about 200 people outside the USIT office at UCD. The queue started this afternoon. There was no way I was going to stand in line, unprepared, for sixteen hours just to get a visa. I’m fucking exausted as it is from my thirteen hours of hell writing my essay yesterday, if I did there’s no question that I’d get sick and miss too much college, especially at this point in the semester. I feel depressed…. very depressed…. but I know it’s not nearly the end of the world. I still have plan B1 (get in touch with the Canadian embassy and find out if I can get a temporary work permit and go over solo), and plan B2 (see if I am eligible for a J1 to the States; depends on the US immigration requirements). It’s not like I won’t be going to North America at all - I’m still going to Toronto in March - but I had my heart set on getting away from here for the summer. Still, it’s not over until all my options are exhausted.

My essay: it’s a pile of shite. I just couldn’t concentrate on it; and besides, we hadn’t covered everything in the lectures until today. Which is a pain in the arse, as you can imagine.

I’m trying not to feel so negative - I read Mat’s latest post to his blog earlier, and it’s helping me to put my own situation in perspective - but they’re the only thoughts I’m having right at this minute. I’m sick of things being beyond my control. I just wanna run out on the road and scream ‘FUCK!’ at the top of my lungs.

Mon 19 Nov 2001 at 22:43   ·


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