Macrolog
I’m Sorry…
…that this place hasn’t exactly been bursting with new content. You see, I’ve been doing a lot more thinking than writing recently. Lots of thinking, thinking about the post-grad application and looking for work and planning my trip below the equator and whatever the future may hold. You know, all that jazz.
Lots of thinking, and reading. Lots of reading newspapers and magazines and weblogs and saving links and taking notes. Lots of reading fiction and non-fiction, short stories and not-so-short. Yesterday I read an excellent article on Haruki Murakami in The Guardian. Very enlightening it was, too. Right now I’m ploughing through Don DeLillo’s Underworld. All eight hundred and twenty seven pages of it. Not-so-short.
I’ve been reading much much more than usual as of late. And taking notes all the while, both the written and the mental kind. And watching better television. And talking to myself. Or more correctly, to the other outside myself; an expression of the latent communicator within, was how I put it once. Or something like that. This is all good, trust me.
So I’m sorry I haven’t been posting here as often as you might like, but as you can see, I have a good excuse. And besides, I would rather write nothing than write something rubbish for the sake of it. The more I do this — by this I mean keep a weblog — the better I want it to be. If only for my own gratification.
I’ve read through the archive a handful of times. There’s some good stuff that I’m proud of. And there’s an awful lot of shit. I’ve been in two minds about this. If I delete the shit, it would be to maintain a high standard of writing quality. But if I do, there won’t be any shit left to compare with the good stuff…
…It’s for the best, I think, to leave things as they are. As a reminder of sorts, of how much better I can be. Of how much better I can get.
I would rather write nothing than write something rubbish for the sake of it. So I’m sorry about writing this, because when you think about it, this is really just padding, something to fill the void until I can come up with something really worthwhile or profound or interesting to say.
But I’m not that sorry, really.
Sun 18 May 2003 at 15:37 ·
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