Macrolog
I’d Rather Just Listen to Music
You know sometimes, I’d rather just listen to music:
“Some people say that’s escapism. But that’s fine by me. I live my life, you live yours. If you’re clear about what you want, then you can live any way you please. I don’t give a damn what people say. They can be reptile food for all I care … Does that mean I have arrested development? Or have I been right alll these years? I’m still waiting on the answer to that one.”
I think this quote from Dance Dance Dance by Haruki Murakami (p.113) says a lot about me. Except for the ‘waiting on the answer’ part, that is, because I’ve already found mine.
To put it plainly, I like to be alone.
Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not anti-social — of course I get on very well with people and I enjoy the company of my friends (I don’t see them nearly as often as I would like) — but that doesn’t, that shouldn’t, negate the fact that I crave time by myself. Time alone with my thoughts, my books, my music, away from other people. (With one exeption, and she knows who she is.) When I’m alone, not only am I by myself, I’m also for myself, not for others. It’s the only time when I can feel like me.
So while everyone else is cavorting about the town, I’d rather just listen to music. Does this make me an introverted weirdo, or social misfit? I don’t think so. Throw me into the deep end and I can swim with the best of them, but that doesn’t mean I have to enjoy it. Because I can’t honestly say that I do. Tolerate, maybe. But enjoy? Not so.
You might say I don’t know what I’m missing. But I think I do, and to me it’s nothing special. The real question is, do you?
Tue 12 Aug 2003 at 22:24 ·
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